Thursday, July 28, 2022

Circa 2011

I was in a house, near the front door. It was daylight outside. In the house with me was my mother. I was trying to stop three men from taking her somewhere. The men were all former drinking buddies of hers, all of them dead of alcoholism. An asshole named Gary, Carl Whiteside and Randy, my uncle.

I was telling them that they couldn't take her with them. I wouldn't permit it. It just flat out wasn't happening and to fuck off. 

Gary was yelling at me, "It's my truck! I'm driving!" The other two were silent.

I simply said, "I don't give a fuck whose truck it is, you're not taking her anywhere."

And they didn't.





Tuesday, April 26, 2022

Circa 2001

I'm standing next to my car in the parking lot of an apartment complex I never actually lived in. It's a bright, warm, sunny day. Next to the parking lot is a busy road with heavy traffic going in both directions.

On the other side of the road is a figure, waving at me with his hand high in the air. I squint my eyes and see it's my friend, Roger. He looks great, which surprises me. Strong and hale, with a headful of hair and a beautiful, open smile on his glowing face. I'm happy because the last time I had actually seen him he was very sick with cancer. Frail. Dying. 

I can see he is restored and is joyfully greeting me. I wave back, so grateful to know that he's better now.



Circa 1990

I'm at work, a fast food restaurant, mopping the floor of the main lobby where smoking is allowed. I look over into the second seating area for non-smokers and see my recently deceased great-grandmother, who was a chain smoker in life, sitting in a booth. She doesn't say anything. She just smiles while being engulfed in a bright, white light, then vanishes. I know she forgives me for not mourning her passing more than I did, which wasn't much.

Circa 1983

I'm in my classroom at school but it's nighttime. I have the feeling that the world is reversed. Half the students are gone and the rest are frozen at their desks. The teacher is frozen, too. I get up from my place, afraid. A low, dense fog swirls around the room, around my knees.

I try to run away but my legs are heavy, slow. I'm in an alley. The fog is still there. A white van approaches and a man gets out. He has a dark beard and is wearing mechanic's overalls and a knit beanie. He starts towards me and I turn away in fear. He's going to hurt me.

But when I turn, he's there, getting closer. I turn again and again he's there. Everywhere I look, he's there, in the fog.

I know I'm about to die.

Circa 1982

Nighttime. I'm high above, looking down on a large forested area covered in tall pines. There's a Sphinx, taller than the trees but with my mother's face, surveying the land below her. 

There's a network of cables, tight ropes, interlacing the tree tops. People, slaves, are walking on them, scurrying to do her bidding. Afraid. Watched.

Some distance from the Mother Sphinx, there is a clearing in the woods. In the center of the clearing there is a deep pit. The pit is lined with figures wearing red, hooded cloaks. I can't see their faces. They watch what is happening in the pit.

In the pit there is a struggle between two opponents. Jesus and Satan. They fight for my soul and the  Mother Sphinx awaits the outcome.


Circa 2011

I was in a house, near the front door. It was daylight outside. In the house with me was my mother. I was trying to stop three men from taki...